novices welcome

This morning I woke up entirely aware in of every muscle in my body from the neck down. My day carried on with no real excitement. I had just finished studying when I heard the thunder crack! I could not see the rain falling outside since there are no great windows in my studio. So, I fixed my gaze on the skylight to watch the raindrops collect and roll down the window, feeling the dreariness. Barely able to stand up, I forfeited any hope I had to take a ride on the trail. No way did I think I was capable of getting my leg over the center bike bar, and riding in the rain didn’t sound all that thrilling anyway.  

After doing a few chores I decided I’d had enough of being a downer and bundled up in my rain gear and got on the bike. Aside from dodging a slug here and there, biking was literally the breath of fresh air I needed to walk out on my pity party.  Biking in the rain felt exhilarating. Maybe it was the freedom from my own mind or the warm fall air.  

I am still flying between the trapeze bars of transition. I am settled in nicely. Wednesday I saw a flyer for the college rowing team (novices welcome) so I joined (hence the sore muscles) and I have been applying for jobs, studying and learning, but that space in between the letting go of one trapeze bar to catch another is hit hard today. Dwelling in it did absolutely no good, so I decided to force my leg over the bike bar and pedal. To my surprise it was easier than I imagined.

That’s how most things seem to be going here, building things up in my mind to be bigger than they really are. When I actually do whatever it is, it is not nearly as “big or bad” as I imagine it to be. Remembering to remember this is what I’ll be working on this week!